Self-Deceit

 

Deshi:  You say that our practice can and should have at its center the sensei/deshi relationship.  I feel that I have that.  Only, it seems that my practice is then so dependent upon you.  If you are not practicing, I do not practice.  Can this be right?

Sensei:  No, this is not right.  If you practice only when you believe me to be practicing, then even then you are not practicing.  Believe me, I do not practice only when we can practice together.  In this way, I can practice with you.  Practicing "with you" is something altogether different from practicing "because of you."

Deshi:  Practicing "with you" is having the sensei/deshi relationship at the center of my training.  Practicing "because of you" is not having the sensei/deshi relationship at the center of my training, because then I am not training.

Sensei:  This is right.

Deshi:  What is it then that I do have, if not practice, when I am training because of you?

Sensei:  Self-Deceit.

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